Because of me...

Yesterday I got probably the best compliment ever. I was helping a guy do a tax return. Many many people are unpleasant when doing their taxes which is why it's pretty much my job to deal with just about everybody who walks through the door because I have a knack for talking to people. However, this guy was extremely pleasant so it was easy for me to be nice. Anyway, when all was done and he was starting to go he turned back and told me had pleasant it had been working with me. He went on to say that working with people like me, good christian men and women of my caliber, made him believe that God still had good people in this world. The world was still good because of me. I went home at 5 and cried. I was thrilled. Just last year I actually denied any connection with God. I DENIED Him! Since then, I've rearranged my priorities, but I've been filled with questions and doubt these last few weeks. Yesterday, God knew I needed that man. So now pretty much everyone (not that anywhere close to everyone reads my stuff, but you know what I mean) knows how sentimental I am. They all know that I'm Christian, not atheist, agnostic, skeptic or Jew. I kinda wanted to hide it because I was afraid that certain people who I've been trying to impress may not want anything to do with me. But, I am what I am. I'll tell you what: I think I'm happier than three of those other types I listed.

As it is with Sequals

Well, went to see Reloaded this weekend. Good movie, not great, but good. I have to say it left me rather unsatisfied. I personally wasn't left contemplating any new theories as with the first. Quite frankly I found their use of sound and special effects trivialized a lot of scenes that should have been important. I mean honestly, did anyone feel Neo was really threatened by the multitude of Smiths since it sounded more like he was bowling strikes than like a genuine fight scene? Also, there was so much foreshadowing and emphasis on stuff that never really played out. Surely someone else thought more was going to come from the kiss with Persephone. And they just totally ignored playing up the irony of Link's wife not wanting HIM to die. And really, did the digital orgasm add anything to the story? I guess I just expected more. Neo and Trinity make a hot couple though and, as always, Lawrence Fishburne rocked!

Just a glimpse

I love books, movies, and captivating conversation. I love being able to look into other worlds and just wonder. There's someone new I'd like to invite into a fish bowl. I like looking through his eyes. He sees the left side of things when I only look at the right side. I'm ready for a good argument or maybe a change of mind. I doubt his interest though. Should I pursue? And Hava's in trouble because she didn't call me twice. I know finals are over you snot!! Call me. Matt, I hope you're doing better. You seem bitter over stuff much too quickly these days, especially people's opinion of you. On the other hand, it's been a long time since I've been aware of what's up with you. If it makes you feel any better, my opinion of you is still well above low.

What I hate most

I hate how judgmental I can be. I try to work on it, really I do. In fact I'm really down today because I voiced an opinion of the way Jesse does something and he got uber irritated. I've been holding it in for days, maybe even a few weeks. I just couldn't stand it anymore this morning. I tried to point it out very gently (no yelling, no unfair arguments - I'm infamous for both), but he said my tone and accusing phrases were "uncool." I don't like to fight with my husband, but he seems to think I pick arguments with him for fun all the time. Its just frustrating that I thought I was trying so hard and he didn't even notice my efforts - which means he didn't make a move toward compromise. Fighting sucks. Peaceful relationships to you all, JG

Sigh and smile

Some times you look around and sigh and smile. I'll tell you what beats it all. Sitting at your new old desk made out of a door from a barn, in your newly painted study listening to jazz. Reading lj to catch up with old friends who are happy at last. The cat in your lap, dog at your feet, and the only light comes from the red lava lamp. Thank God for being able to enjoy the small things. Sigh and smile. I miss you Hava. Had another episode with Kim. Let's make plans soon.

After Christmas and all is well!

Hello hello!!What a wonderful wonderful wonderful world we live in! I just love the Christmas season. Jesse got a new job and we had dinner with some wonderful people at the Christmas party who reminded us how nice it is to have friends that honor and reinforce your beliefs. (You do those things too Hava, you're just too far away to do it all the time). I also got a call from an old friend whom I thought I'd lost and totally learned my lesson about making presumptions. We went to the candlelight Christmas Eve service and surrounded ourselves with the true meaning of Christmas and then had just a fabulous day with family. I can still smell the ham and apple cinnamon chimichangas. To top it off I completed a hellish semester with straight As and a confirmation of my graduation. Now I am chilling before I enter the season of mega overtime at work. Hopefully I'll hear from my far off Hava soon! It would just complete everything. Happy after holidays to everybody.Champagne filled chocolate covered hotties to you all for New Years!

Finality

It's here. The end. graduation is in sight. I just have to get through four more finals. Can you feel the electricity being generated by all my nervous energy? I've never so completely thrown myself into studying. Nothing has ever seemed to bring with it such finality (is that a word?). My life is beginning. I'm going to work full time. I'm not going to have to homework in the evenings. I can take art classes or learn to dance or indulge in all my favorite movies. I'm so excited! I'm so nervous! This is going to be so much fun!! I wish everybody the best of luck on their finals (and all their other trials and tribulations). Good memories and number 2 pencils to you all!